I’m king of this blood-haunted room,
Grand marshal over the endless parade of junkies, thugs and whores waiting to be immunized against their sad life stories
Cops crawl the streets like flies on shit and fiends need to bang their dope quick, don’t need to get popped holding a dime bag
They need a place to shoot, a sheltered squat with a stash of needles, where other dope fiends can help them hit a closed up vein
So they come here cause it’s close; cause they too sick to make it home or cause they just can’t wait
They come here for a good time
We the best shooting gallery down town,
Boneman, Double D and me run the place and we sell new needles for 2 bucks and bleach if you wanna clean your own
Stupid ass junkies be sharing shit and injecting each other with death,
sharing the lethal hardware of contaminated needles
Dope fiends always on the hustle, always on the grind, steal and sell their mama’s radio and forge her welfare check
I don’t need no fucking hustle, I make mad bank off these crack heads,
2 dollars to get in, 2 dollars for a clean needle, and all the pussy I want
Bitches come in sick, slogging through trash heaps out front, climb the rickety steps into this burned out hollow of a house
Crying and moaning they ain’t got no money and I give ’em a taste after they suck my dick
I won’t do no dope, I smoke herb but I ain’t about no junkie life
so I always have plenty, bitches come here knowing they can trade pussy for junk
Boneman wishes he could get pussy like I do, but he’s a dumb junkie hisself,
He lives here, his soul drained away through the tiny holes in his veins
His bed a moldy cot in a ratty gallery.
But tonight me and Double D getting all the pussy we want,
Tonight, we are KINGS
This is our palace, gouged walls, charred beams,
Dirty bedsheets hung over what once were windows.
Outside, trade in crack and dope busts the streets as wide open as a carnival midway,
50 dealers walk up and down, ten dollar bags in their socks,
Inside, candlelight distorted human shadows huddle together next to grimy walls,
“Cooker friends,” in solidarity for a moment over glassine packets of powder and a bottle cap,
and some bitch wrapped in blackened rags moans on a dirty mattress.
Tonight, they all here for a good time
Later I’ll go home and find mom passed out in her own piss;
an empty Colt 45 bottle rolling by her side and a Hi Point 9 mm under her pillow
My mom and her fucking men; the parade of drunken scumbags who came in and out of our lives, who came in and out of me
The one who fucked me when mom left to get scratch offs, smokes and a 40 down the block;
she’d come back and hear me crying, ass split and
let it go on a whole year cause he made good money running numbers
She was wasted drunk the day Julius fell out the window
My baby brother J was leaning against the screen and
people said mom was too drunk to pull him away from a loose screen
but it wasn’t
The morgue doctor saw the hole in his brain; a clean shot, a stray bullet from a playground shoot out caught him in the head and
He fell hard against that screen.
Still, he had no business up against that window watching gang gunfire,
And I hope to god I catch my mom without her Hi Point one night cause I would like to kill her in her sleep,
slam a pipe down on her skull and spill her ugly brains onto the pillow
But tonight we having a good time
Fucking dope fiend bitches coming in here like crazy tonight, sick and moaning and broke, and I fuck them and throw a five dollar bag at them
And the men look at me with hollow eyes
Wasted and ruined, breathing in urban grief like it was oxygen
One lame ass fool is whining that his works is too dull; he can’t get a clean shot and he
pushes it against his thick neck, wincing in pain
A trickle a blood runs down his throat, twisting like a river on a map
A map he uses to find the shortcut to death
Outside I ain’t nobody, I ain’t SHIT
but I got JUICE in here
If a white bitch come in here, Me and Double D, we both fuck her
White pussy don’t come in but once or twice a month
So this skinny white red-head bitch shows up,
I seen her before, little east village punk bitch,
She don’t smell nasty like the others, like piss and dead dreams. Her clothes is clean
She talks different too, like she finished high school.
I woulda finished high school too if I was a skinny white snooty bitch and she sound like she even went to college, yeah, she one of them community college cunts.
She smile at me, and I know she don’t mean ‘hello.’
She means ‘look at you, you dumbass nigger, working with dope fiends all day you ain’t never gonna be as good as me cause I’m WHITE’
She think she all that
She don’t need no money, she straight
But I’m gonna fuck this bitch anyway, who the FUCK she think she is?!
She ain’t better than NOBODY
She just a dumb ass dope fiend whore like the rest of ’em
I grab her arm and she turn around, eyes big, and she starts to pull away and I punch her face and stomach, HARD
Pull her over to the mattress and she try and crawl in between the mattress and the wall and I pull her hair, jerk her head so hard that I rip handfuls of red hair out her head
She screaming so I keep ripping red hair out her head, mixed with red blood, blood everywhere, her face, her scalp and I feel like an INDIAN scalping this crazy white bitch!
She just laying there, not even crying so
I fuck her hard and come all up inside her, I hope I leave little black babies in this bitch
But she look like she going away in her head someplace
Look at me when I fuck you!
LOOK AT ME BITCH!
I punch her face hard again so she knows who’s fucking her but her head turns up this time and my ring catches her SPLAT! on her chin
Bust her chin wide open, wide, like my brother’s eyes when he fell 12 stories, wide as the Hudson river where we dump the bodies that OD
DAMN her face is split, blood and torn skin where her chin used to be, and that is gonna leave a nice fucking scar,
She gonna have a big-ass train track scar under her chin,
For the rest of her life, and
20 years from now she’s gonna be driving down the FDR drive, take the Houston street exit,
and pass by here.
Only it ain’t a shooting gallery no more, it’s a motherfucking yogurt shop
but she gonna pass it by and remember
Lift up her hand to feel that bumpy jagged scar
and remember this night
when she came in here and
we had a good time.
Talk to me. I’m listening.